Despite unknown facts tat I do hv a Giftedness selective & self motivating gift toward challenging strategy addictive — my past 2 decades of over swinging yet ability to compromise by the HYPO focusing down swing —
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLrsEbD4FzcIT5ZSPeLvUD1X1Yk0Nb-NGFor 2 decades of golfing only to realized my dyslexia
My golf first and follows by – my pole – b4 agenting – my Folds – of inverted gravity 0f adventure passion – my dyslexic cost me 4 putts for a 2 on on P@R 4 – -my myopia runs me late but fruitfully achieved preset target !
Ironically may it sound – the more I learned abt this prevailing misnamed disorder is how common and for females unfortunately – somewhat hard to define or noticeable till it matures at the age of 30s – impairments striking in only when emotional state at chaotic — marching into our gracefulness & giftedness of curse — the big 4’s is the major of ladies oblivious in every domain impaired manifesting — how frustrating can those tat is not aware of the easily treatment outpatient & chronically linking neurological disorder is general peers for LABELLING —
We hv goals ,we have family value ! We have spoiled pets ,we have creativity career – but financially stable – we have anxiety becus we plan 20years ahead due to insecurity ! Some of us may lead ahead – sadly some was too early mislead – —
My overestimation to be able to learn more and hoping to help any one of us to comprehend we r an union – a trait of indifferent neuron biologic species — some get the guts – luck & through Risk factors — they make it !!
Others I empathize falling into the living hell sectors with less fortunate destiny – to convince I am now retreating …humanity – never wan to know the ruthless facts by resentment I foresee — I am sluggish once again for attempting dictate precisely –
MY FEAR!!? (My comprehension) – is a foreign term and indeed it scares me Cus I honestly don’t know what is F€@R ? The most addictive Drug is the chase for Adrenaline Rush — I could see my recollections by those captured clips of the vague past ..
MY PAIN?!! (My definition) ) – is nothing kind of an adjective or verb immune where I prefer physical than mental as my selective mentally self play
MY ANXIETY!!? – is chronically dismay uncalled for and the closer one gets in my life shall suffer the unexplainable myths so I was lucky to be left alone to fight for food at the age of 3 — the self awareness – self direct – developing along the self defending sway
MY GOALS – !? My adolescent son is smart ,loyal & I simply live no regrets for the so very stern discipline tat many accusation stabbed my repeated opening wounds – subsequently training my trash hole & tolerance of bloodshed and physical pain ! The reason for me to be striving is obviously the son I borne and thankful to Father’s blessing @m€N ! The plot smooth operated and working as my play instinct ‘s blue print-planned !! Playing both roles of 爹娘was never ever easy – to cope with my son was the toughest task – yet despite swallowing mocking of my lacking attention often left me emotionally drained I must admit but say in affirmed dismay !
My Family – my parents – my sibling ,my niece. is my undertaking vow of responsibility 4 shouldering this burden I proclaim –
I am willin to even die for their security in each & every single Way !!